Is What You’re Doing Today Getting You Closer?
The birds start chirping while the sun starts to peak out over the trees and shine through your window. You know it’s almost time to get up out of your cozy, warm bed, oh how you wished you had just 5 minutes longer. The alarm screams through the house and while your tempted to hit snooze for maybe the fifth time you tell yourself it’s time to get up. You go through your typical morning routine, the same as yesterday and the day before. Wipe your eyes, brush teeth, figure out what to wear, look for your keys and head out the door.
Now you’re off on our way to work, probably sitting in traffic, leaning on our elbow that’s propped up on the windowsill and listening to music to help us still wake up. After what seems like forever you arrive at your destination, walk into work and immediately count how many hours till you get to go home. Only to most likely sit in traffic, think about what you should make for dinner and countdown how long before you continue this same cycle again the next day and the next day and the next day.
Let me ask you something, is this cycling life routine truly building the foundation or stepping stones to achieving your dreams or are you convincing yourself that it is.
Hey you! Yes, you, the person on the other side who is reading this and saying to yourself “Oh, that’s not me, I know what I’m doing and in a few months or years I will make the change but right now this is what I have to do”. Take a deep breath and hear me out while I say “STOP WITH THE EXCUSES AND WAKE UP!”. I was right there with you, assuring myself that my time will come and form all the excuses possible simply because of comfort and ultimately fear. Coming to terms that what I was doing each day wasn’t getting me to where I wanted to be, what I wanted to achieve in this world, was a dramatic life change. I could have stayed with what I had been doing for the past 9 years and go down one direction or just maybe take a chance on myself.
Taking a chance on yourself seems so easy and a little cliche. For we hear this phrase far too often, whether it was after a motivational life speech from your parents or in an academy award winning “change your life” movie. In which after, we feel powerful and ready to take on the world, our mindset changes and we feel hopeful. Fast forward to a week or month later and here we are back into our never-ending loop, getting up, going to the job that isn’t benefiting us, go to bed and repeat over and over. In order for us to take a chance on ourselves, we have to comprehend a couple of things.
It’s questions like these that allow us to dive deep into our souls and find out who we truly are. The passions and goals we have that drive us to make changes in our lives. For a while, I couldn’t get past the first question without a long paragraph of everything I wanted and my goals seemed to be scattered all over the place. With not being completely in tune with my goals, they weren’t being achieved due to them being too vague and not narrowed down. Now with the comfort thing, I’ve always been someone who doesn’t like change unless I’m the one who initiates it. (Go figure!) So instead of pushing myself out of my comfort zone and taking chances, I assured myself that when it was ready the opportunity would present itself and my life stayed pretty much the same.
Fast forward to last year, sitting on a plane flying home from one of the most amazing experiences of my life, I remembered a conversation I had with someone just the year before. They had asked me what I want to do in life and I thought I was asking their question, however my vague or generic answers weren’t truly me. They continued to ask me the same question over and over until I grew frustrated and ended the conversation. I knew what they were asking yet my fear and being uncomfortable within my own skin wasn’t allowing me to search within my soul. It put me in a vulnerable state and I felt exposed to this person as if they could see me the way I couldn’t. Looking out of the plane window it hit me and I felt alive. The answer to that question was clear and in that one moment everything in my mind, body and soul changed for the better, for me.
Finding my true passions in life and what I want to make of my story have started a ripple effect of changes in my life. Each day brings new light and insight into who I am and the journey I will lead. It’s the small steps each day and sometimes the giant leaps that carry us to our life objectives. Now I’m a very honest person and I will admit that there are some days where I feel defeated or a little off balance because I may have not gotten everything accomplished or felt that I haven’t made any progress with what I said I would. Maybe I haven’t posted on the blog in a while or the back room still isn’t done that we started a month ago, but you know what? It’s ok!
It’s ok because I’m not where I was last year, last month or last week and while I may not have giant leaps of progress every day, I continue to walk forward with courage and drive. I believe in myself more than I ever have and I love the person I am.