As I sit here in joyful solitude on the couch, legs crossed up on the coffee table and my laptop placed accordingly on my lap. I can’t help but reflect on a time in my life that I sat on the couch in solitude. The sense of loneliness and unworthiness seemed to be an endless battle between my heart and my mind. It was one of the hardest times of my life, feeling that there was no light along the horizon. One day I decided to reminisce along the written pages of old journals tucked in the back of the bookshelf, I came across a single page in a small notebook, that read the following:
It took months of deep, heart-wrenching, real soul searching for me to become stronger than I’ve ever been and to understand how amazing I am. Yet, this simple moment in time, that brought me to tears and grasped at my heart, was the stepping stone to me becoming the Portia that I want to be. Once I began to learn myself and shed my skin to expose my soul, I was able to experience a love for myself that I hadn’t come across yet.
The smile that used to be smeared across that young wild spirited girl was beaming brighter and I felt alive. Having those daily affirmations for myself allowed my mind and heart to work together. Instead of feeling like there was a battle between good and evil. You know what I’m talking about when you’re heart is broken and your mind is telling you that you deserve better and you’re strong. I AM AMAZING!
To continue with my daily affirmations, I want to share with you some of the things I love about myself. Hopefully to inspire and provide light to anyone who may be in a dark place.
Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light – Albus Dumbledore
I’m Motivated and I Will Make a Mark
Some would call it defiance but I move to my own beat, achieving things in my own way and challenging the status quo. I refer to the pigtail brown haired girl, running through the wildflowers in New Hampshire, wandering deeper and deeper, exploring the world as it was all my own playground. The rise of the moon, or my great-grandmother yelling for me to come back couldn’t stop me. After dropping out of college and struggling to find my own, I returned to graduate with not one but TWO degrees! If you tell me I won’t do something, WATCH OUT for I will come and you will hear me.
I know that my dreams will happen for they’re appearing in front of my every day and you know why? It’s because I want it!
I’m Silly, Goofy and All The Above
“Oh, you’re so silly, babe.” James says this to me at least three times a day. Whether I’m making faces at him, dancing around the house or just being me. It’s very easy to let the challenges or changes in our daily lives to throw us off. We can experience being down or hard on ourselves as I had mentioned above. I choose how to react to the world around and being silly and free brings happiness to my soul and is the light to my dark days.
There are people who live in this world for others. They live on how they believe others should want them to live and how to act. This makes it easier to lose ourselves because we hide it deep inside. Being silly and lighthearted is who I am. It makes me laugh till my stomach hurts, it reminds me of my silly great-grandmother and it just feels right. Being true to myself and showing who I am is what makes this journey true and my own.
My Blue Eyes and Brown Hair
Please read the disclaimer: this is in no way to be superficial or vane, it’s strictly loving who I am. I love that I have blue eyes because two of my favorite people who had blue eyes…can you guess? You’re thinking my mom and dad right, that would be the obvious guess. However you would be wrong, these two individuals were my great-grandmother and my papa. Every morning looking in the mirror, I’m reminded of these beloved individuals and see a piece of them embedded in me. But I truly love the uniqueness and rareness of having bright blue eyes and chocolate brown hair.
What do you love most about yourself? What would be your daily affirmation? I would love to know more about you, the beautiful souls on this journey with me. Share what you love/admire about yourself the most. Remember that you’re amazing, strong, beautiful, fun, loving and most importantly you are you!
I love this! Lately I’ve been writing in a journal my daily gratitude thoughts and it’s really made a positive impact on my life. Great post.
Such an inspiring post. We share beautiful words with other people and inspire them and push them for greatness, but we often forget to love and accept ourselves. Great post to love yourself more.
Very nicely written. I believe we’d be friends. The best way to find out about me is at asmymindunwinds.com
Excellent Read, I enjoyed reading about you…it made me feel like I knew you! Oan it’s so important to reminder people to love themselves, because we sometimes lose ourselves in the lives of others. I believe we are alike in that way; we have the ability to be transparent and relateable.
I love it! I feel like we often get wrapped up in everyday life we forget about the little things that make us happy!
This is a very important point you bring up — that we must love ourselves and cannot rely on others to give us that love. Honestly, this is difficult for me and I still struggle with it. I like the idea of writing yourself affirmations so that you can have a reminder when you’re feeling lonely or having a bad day!
I love that you like to dance around the house! I do the same thing. Sometimes it is nice to just shut your brain off, turn on some music and dance. My husband also calls me silly!! Most of the time though I can get him to join in!
Lovely piece. Thank you for sharing your heart ⭐️
I love this! I’ve been working especially hard on it this year, and I’ve made some realizations because of it, and that’s ok. Thanks for posting!
Absolutely love this! The older I get, the more I believe it to be true: you can’t truly love anyone else unless you love ourself first. When I love myself, I take better care of my self and others. I’m a better mother, girlfriend and friend. Not loving me caused so much stress, tension, relationship problems. You’re less affected by things that don’t matter when you’re in a state of self love. Great read!
I love this! We should all encourage each other to love themselves as well, that way it never comes across as vain! Because you can love something about yourself and love something completely different on someone else!
Awesome and very encouraging post! I recently started writing daily affirmations and it has definitely helped me to have a better and more positive perception of myself.
Love that you are vulnerable and shared this with us. We all feel lonely and less than at some point in our lives. My daily affirmations is I am enough and capable of anything I dream of.
Beautiful post and great words. So many people suffer in silence with anxiety, depression and feeling insecure and your post will help. X
Lovely post and great lesson. We need to learn to love ourselves. I say it to other people often, but forget to take my own advice. So thank you for the reminder.